I know that it is my job to prepare my children for life, for life in the world, for life in the real world, for life in the real world when I am not there to help them every step of the way. But, why oh why, am I having such a hard time with it?!? Brigg has been through Driver's Ed, he has logged the 50 plus hours required, and he has survived driving with me screaming at him to be careful. He is a good driver. I have said for months that I can't wait for Brigg to be able to drive. But tonight, when it was time for him to take Aspen to soccer practice and then drive himself to basketball practice, I panicked. Okay, not a full out panic attack, but my heartbeat was irregular and my eyes were teary.
So how did I handle this panic, the fear that something might happen to one of my precious children, the fear that something might happen to one or both of my precious children and I wouldn't be with them to fix it? I prayed. We prayed. We looked up scripture. Oh how I love my children. Brigg knew that his Mom was struggling to let go. Brigg knew that I needed reassurance from our Heavenly Father, so he reminded me of God's word. Philippians 4:13 "I can do everything through Christ who strengthens me." That verse, I'm sure was to show me that he wasn't worried about his driving. Driving alone. Driving alone in the dark! Am I being a little too dramatic here? Then he turned to Matthew. Matthew 6:27 "Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?" This was to show me that, well, obviously, worrying doesn't help. God is in control, I have to let go and Let God. I am constantly being reminded of that!
We hugged, we prayed and I went over all the rules. Rules he already knew, but I figured a "Pop Quiz" wouldn't hurt. What are Mom's rules? Seatbelts, keep your eyes on the road, pay attention, no cell phone when driving, call when you get where you are going, call before you leave, and PRAY!
He was ready, time to let him go.
Brigg, Aspen and Lewis pulling out of our driveway.
Lewis is Brigg's truck. Remember that I told you we like to name things around here? Well, our vehicles are no exception. Brigg's truck is named Lewis.
Aspen waves as if this is no big deal. Whatever!!
And there they go...
Forgive me for the quality of these pictures. I wanted to capture this moment on film, but Brigg was just ready to get on with this journey. This first step of going out into the world. This first step without Mom.
So here's to trusting God! Trusting God with my children on this new journey that we embark: driving without Mom or Dad.
Blessings,
Buffy